Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Exhausted, but happy. . .

Hi everyone. To be completely honest, I am absolutely exhausted right now and feel as though my brain is done for the evening. I think the lack of sleep from the past three weeks has finally caught up with me, and I would love nothing more than to crawl into bed, put a good Hitchcock film on, and go to sleep. I will never again take free time for granted.
I wanted to say that I greatly appreciate and admire everyone in my cohort. I was very nervous about going back to school, and dealing with self doubt/fear of pursuing the profession of teaching, but it is all slowly fading as I am realizing the community and support system I have within my cohort. I have never gone through an academic process that has been as intimate as this. After attending large universities such as PSU and OSU for my undergraduate degree, coming to a smaller school has been an extremely unfamiliar experience . I will never forget stepping into the bookstore and having someone greet me and help me get my books. It was surreal. In my head I was thinking, "What!? How do you know my classes? I can't believe I am getting this assistance."
I was used to a two story book store with lines out the door. If I could find someone to help me, that would be amazing. I was used to mapping out my own academic schedule and navigating through my classes very independently. I rarely spoke with my professors, and never built long lasting relationships with classmates. These past three weeks have been exhausting in the best way. I am being pushed to interact in ways that I am not used to. I know it has only been a short time since we started class, but it is hard for me to imagine my life prior to this experience and before I knew any of you existed. I feel really lucky to get to work with such a great group of people and teachers. I look forward to future social gatherings, where we can kick back and get to know each other better over a few cold beers (or other beverage of preference).

1 comment:

  1. I couldn't agree with you more. About everything! I too am completely exhausted (being as its midnight and im just now posting this because I just got home from work... probably need to quit!) But this experience has already been so much more than any of my past experiences. I too went to OSU and though Im a proud Beaver, I hated the way the classes and education were set up! I never felt like I was part of anything important like I do at Lewis and Clark and the cohort experience is awesome! It can be difficult spending so much time with the same group of people but I think we all have something totally new and different to bring in and it's so refreshing to be around people who care about the same things I do. I am feeling drained, but this is so worth it and Im excited ( and nervous) for what is to come.

    oh, and I agree with needing to get to know each other in another setting.. and involving beer :)

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